Ok so
the title has little to do with what I’m posting on, but I’m just happy that
the sky is actually overcast today.It
has been way too sunny and summery for the past few months that I’ve been here.I also started reading a book today which
takes place in Lima and it talks about the gray skies of winter there…which
makes me happy in thinking about the trek…which is good because thus far that
book is very depressing…interesting, but depressing.So what am I feeling I should write about?
Distractions!Yay! ...wait no.I’m not a fan.So I’ve been feeling extra distracted
lately.I’m losing desire to do much
else but work and then come back and distract myself.It is in these times that I long more and
more to leave and go elsewhere, to simplify, to leave all of the distractions
and annoying things that the world tells me I have to do…le sigh.Perhaps God had me not thinking about going into
debt before I did to make sure that I would stay in the US for a bit while I
learned some more stuff…or just grew more frustrated and driven so that I’d be
less likely to want to return quickly once I get where He leads me for international
stuff.Oh yeah on a side note I heard on
the NPR the other day that there are slums in Bogotá in Colombia; so if I’m
supposed to check out Bogotá and I feel more called to urban slum ministry that
could be where God’s leading me.I’ll
see.I’m bored…and the vast majority of
my time is composed of activities that do very little to grow my relationship
with God so I’m very discontented with where I’m at.
I also
am somewhat unsure if the community group that Misty and I are in is right for
me.My main issue is that it’s mainly a
college aged group.So while the church
is excellent and the teaching definitely pushes people to a better relationship
with God…I feel that the group lacks the focus that I would like since I’d like
a group focused on justice stuff and this group is still mostly focused on
college…so I kind of want to see what will happen as more graduate, but I also
kind of want to find a community that shares the more specific cry of my heart
of poverty issues…which eventually I would hope would lead me to living in a
community that lives in a poor neighborhood…and it’d be pretty darn cool if we
all went off to live in another country that God calls us to after that…nudge
nudge God. J…sigh.I want out of this place
I’m in.
In
completely unrelated news my brother is now engaged, so congratulations to him
and his fiancée.
